Oh, I miss you already..

1st November 2010 morning. I saw a valencia orange on top of my table. I asked who it's from and my sis, Isay, said "from me, maybe my last gift for you". I disagreed and said..."yeah, for today." After few minutes, i started to feel sad.

My sister came and worked with me for few years. We shared a lot of things as well as argued on a lot too. She was with me when I was all down, she was with me in all my battles. I laughed with her during happy times and didn't leave her when she felt alone. She was the source of my strength as a family member and I hope I was able to provide her the strength she needed during her trial times. Few more days and my sis will be going for good with her husband. Then I will be left alone in Lae. I have mixed emotions about this at the moment.

I am sad. Because the once a baby who I taught how to walk in small steps is running away now and fast. The little sister I used to look after when I was much younger is going to leave my arms. From the day she was born, we shared the same birthday together. And I will never forget the last birthday we celebrated together (2010 Jan). That was the day I proposed a toast for her engagement. That in behalf of my family members, I gave the blessing for her to be the fiance of her now husband. I am sad because she won't be with me anymore. I'm sad because I won't be talking everyday with her anymore. I'm sad because I'm going to miss her so.... *sighs*

I am happy for her. I am happy that she now is fulfilling her heart's desires. She was able to travel to few places. Some I have not been myself. She used to tell me she wanted to build a family, a simple one. She wanted to have a small house in the middle of a big lot. So that she can walk, run and play with her kids in the future. Now she found a very kind husband. Then she's going to have a baby soon. I will have the joy to see her with their baby. The once shy, little sister I had, is a grown up woman. Getting ready to face a new chapter in her life. To be a wife to her man and a mother to their kids. That makes me happy and proud of her. She is a beautiful woman, inside out. And I believe their kids will be as beautiful as her and her husband.

My little sister, Isay, you have grown to be a beautiful woman. You have made me proud of you -you worked well, thought well, chose things well. You're here still but the thought of you going makes me feel so emotional. You're still here but you know what? I'm missing you already. I wish you love...I wish you happiness with your very kind and respectable husband, Jerome, who we entrusting your protection and happiness to. I wish you enough...